I think you’re pretty amazing. out of all the people I had seen and met that day, you were the only one who caught my eye. Idk what it is, but something about you is just so attractive. I hope we meet again, juuuust because I’d like to get to know you. :)
of bliss. lol not really… but it was quite relaxing despite the craze of college apps and whatnot. whatdidIdofortheseninedays!? watched harry potter with mason, went to six flags for the first time EVER & met so many people whose names currently escape my mind, saw the most good lookin’ guy ever who caught my eye, spent quality time with some good ol’ friends, vietnamese club game night @ alex’s, saw katie & aidan a looott!, david came over a lot and we talked, my sister and her bf/whatever is he now came home!, thanksgiving lunch @ home, and dinnaaa @ katie’s mom’s restaurant, spent lots of time with cutie aidan ze bebe, tagged along for black friday shopping with family, I didn’t buy anything :( , and today my sister and her bf went back to SD… so now I’m doing some homework. I submitted my UC & CSU college apps. I just have to work on USF which isn’t due until january…
you’ve got me goin, I’m goin, don’t look now…
I admit that I miss you. I miss a lot. I miss you more than I most definitely should. I shouldn’t even be thinking about you, talking about you… but you appear in my mind one too many times per day. when I think about you now… it’s somewhat of a bittersweet feeling. I miss you. definitely. I no longer have that ‘ache’ in my chest when I think about you. even though I miss you… I don’t think my life could handle you. I don’t think I can. I guess I gotta just move on. when I think about you… it’s not as painful. not as heart-wrenching. just kind of… nostalgic. I change my mind back and forth when it comes to ‘regret’ and ever becoming involved with you. I’m sad that I had to go through this and I never want to experience these feelings again. I don’t want anyone to. it’s not fun. it’s a fucking nightmare. but at the same time… I’m glad I did because now I’ve learned from it. I’ve grown up. I’ve matured somewhat concerning these matters. I’ll admit that I miss you. I’ll always have feelings for you because you were the first guy I’ve ever cared for so much, ever liked, ever thought of so much… you were my first kiss. is it time to say good-bye?
… I think so.
(via 365thoughts, 365thoughts)
its really hard to find someone who can replace the person who previously broke your heart, but fuck it, you’ll find someone who will break down those walls that you built and lower your standards, all you need is patience.
so lost… just so damn lost…
I wish someone could just tell me what to do… and I’d follow through…
— Joseph Conrad
amazing writer.
jk…………. totally fooled me.
